I made the choice to take one step out. One step that many, under the same circumstances, may not choose to take. A step of declaration, of affirmation. Not in anyone's God, but in my commitment, my desire to have a shot at a 'future'.

Tonight, after about 9 months from taking that one step, I felt ostracised by the very person accompanying me throughout, so far. It felt like, 'what the fuck?'

But I remembered Anna said I am the cool girlfriend. So, I decided to shower, eat and work on more constructive matters.

I guess, what I really want to say is, if what I have done, in this aspect, for us, is not good enough, then perhaps I am just not good enough for you.

That's all I have left to say. As compared to ostracising, I have said too much.

Cool girlfriend thinks, 'whatever! Am just not going to waste life getting worked up over that.' Especially not when she has not been sleeping soundly for 2 nights. The prayer for a good, sound night of sleep.

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